This past Friday, I was diagnosed with cancer. It’s in the lymph nodes in my neck. (Bruce refers to them as “nymph lodes” to raise my spirits.) The problem is finding out where it originated. So, more testing. Yippee! A PET scan, most likely.

I’ve been crying a lot. It’s hard not to think of the “What Ifs”. What if I lose my hair? What if I wind up with ugly scars on my neck? What if I lose too much weight? It sucks balls that I don’t have any control while I wait to hear from Mayo for the next steps that I need to take. I hate this!

I’m trying to stay positive and distract myself. But it’s difficult. I take meds for depression. Right now, it’s hard to believe they are working. As I write this, there are 15 minutes left before the close of business. I don’t think I’ll hear today.

I just talked to my daughter. I’ve been wanting to do my hair in Mermaid colors. I didn’t want to upset her with strange color at her wedding. She said “Go for it!”, much to Bruce’s chagrin. So now I need a place to do my hair. Our daughter gifted us with points and our flights are booked for the wedding.

Continuing to look forward. Me.

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Published by AlexxOphelia

Married spoonie Chronic pain 2 cats 1 puppy love crafting Pagan cancer survivor Liberal independent thinker writer-artist don't like it? Please go away. No patience for haters or bigots. Love my kids and grandkids. Prochoice. BLM. LGBTQ+ Ally

16 thoughts on “#CancerSucks

  1. Hang in there. The journey may be long and hard, but I know that you have the strength to beat the demon. You have a strong man and family to help you through the tough times. Remember, never loose your sense of humor. They say that laughter is the best medicine. Trust me it is.

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  2. You got this Alexx, both you and Bruce have a fighting spirit and I’m sure you will both get thru this and many more obstacles that come your way. Boulder on thru and smash anything that tries to stop you. Your alot stronger than you think, sometimes you forget that and doubt yourself and your ability to overcome life’s hurdles. You have a beautiful family, and many friends to help support you and see you thru on your down days. Rainbow hair, love it, go for it. Love and hugs x

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  3. You know each and everyday you’ll be in my thoughts and every night my prayers. If you need to talk, vent or just cry you Have my number baby girl. You got this! #cancer sucks but you are a warrior.

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