Let’s get Physical or Chronic Pain and Illnesses

Life has been difficult lately. I’ve been dealing with a lot of depression and anxiety. I also have been having trouble with these horrible “ESSENTIAL TREMORS”. I hate the trembling in my hands, I can take the pills I have, but the prescription is written so that it says I can take it more than once a day but the number of pills is written by the month so I get 30 pills for 30 days. So there are days I don’t take it and I can not do much of anything with my hands.

I get really tired of all the shaking. I want to be able to create. Here I am post pill and I can type. I want to make something and crochet. Maybe I can make something small, like an octopus. I’m not sure what I can make. Perhaps I can find a pattern for a doily that’s easy or I can adapt my star blanket pattern into a smaller doily with a thinner yarn or thread.

My knees, which have been replaced, have been achy since yesterday. I think it’s the changes in the weather. The weather always seems to get to me. I had trouble getting comfortable last night. There may be a second reason for the achiness, I had to do a sleep study last night. I’ve still got glue in my hair and it is almost 4:00 in the afternoon. I will never buy a sleep number bed, ever. It was the most uncomfortable sleep I have had in a very long time. I felt like I was sleeping on the ground. On second thought the ground might be more comfortable. Plus having wires attached sucks. The glue on my face and in my hair is a mess. Then I was put off my sleep schedule because they don’t want to deal with me. I never go to sleep at 10 pm. So I lay there, with my eyes closed listening to the TV for what seemed to be forever. I tossed and turned and now my back hurts.

Yes, I’m whining. I am tired of always dealing with physical and or mental issues. I’ll talk about the mental health issues another time. Today is all about the physical. Chronic pain is the worst. It never ends. It’s always there. Sometimes it hides, then jumps out at you when you are in a vulnerable position. There are bad days, then very bad days, and again very, very bad days. Today is a very bad day. I’m sitting here trying to simply ignore the pain in my back and hips. I can’t take NSAIDs because of my gastric bypass nearly 4 years ago. They might help but Acetaminophen is all I can take. I hope that some Voltaren gel will help. It’s the exception to the NSAIDs because it’s topical. The doctor said I can use it, as long as I don’t bathe in it. Mind you, there are days that I want to bathe in it! The knees are a different story. Not much touches the pain in the knees. What needs to happen is I need to strengthen them.

I just started physical therapy today. The therapist sent me home with tons of exercises plus 5 min on the bike to start. The therapist wants me to walk a few days a week as well. I also need to strengthen my core. Strengthening my core will help with my strength overall.

It’s a long road but the hope is to increase strength, endurance, balance, and maybe a little pain reduction.

Life has been difficult lately. I’ve been dealing with a lot of depression and anxiety. I also have been having trouble with these horrible “ESSENTIAL TREMORS”. I hate the trembling in my hands, I can take the pills I have, but the prescription is written so that it says I can take it more than once a day but the number of pills is written by the month so I get 30 pills for 30 days. So there are days I don’t take it and I can not do much of anything with my hands.

I get really tired of all the shaking. I want to be able to create. Here I am post pill and I can type. I want to make something and crochet. Maybe I can make something small, like an octopus. I’m not sure what I can make. Perhaps I can find a pattern for a doily that’s easy or I can adapt my star blanket pattern into a smaller doily with a thinner yarn or thread.

My knees, which have been replaced, have been achy since yesterday. I think it’s the changes in the weather. The weather always seems to get to me. I had trouble getting comfortable last night. There may be a second reason for the achiness, I had to do a sleep study last night. I’ve still got glue in my hair and it is almost 4:00 in the afternoon. I will never buy a sleep number bed, ever. It was the most uncomfortable sleep I have had in a very long time. I felt like I was sleeping on the ground. On second thought the ground might be more comfortable. Plus having wires attached sucks. The glue on my face and in my hair is a mess. Then I was put off my sleep schedule because they don’t want to deal with me. I never go to sleep at 10 pm. So I lay there, with my eyes closed listening to the TV for what seemed to be forever. I tossed and turned and now my back hurts.

Yes, I’m whining. I am tired of always dealing with physical and or mental issues. I’ll talk about the mental health issues another time. Today is all about the physical. Chronic pain is the worst. It never ends. It’s always there. Sometimes it hides, then jumps out at you when you are in a vulnerable position. There are bad days, then very bad days, and again very, very bad days. Today is a very bad day. I’m sitting here trying to simply ignore the pain in my back and hips. I can’t take NSAIDs because of my gastric bypass nearly 4 years ago. They might help but Acetaminophen is all I can take. I hope that some Voltaren gel will help. It’s the exception to the NSAIDs because it’s topical. The doctor said I can use it, as long as I don’t bathe in it. Mind you, there are days that I want to bathe in it! The knees are a different story. Not much touches the pain in the knees. What needs to happen is I need to strengthen them.

I just started physical therapy today. The therapist sent me home with tons of exercises plus 5 min on the bike to start. The therapist wants me to walk a few days a week as well. I also need to strengthen my core. Strengthening my core will help with my strength overall.

It’s a long road but the hope is to increase strength, endurance, balance, and maybe a little pain reduction.

Enough for now

time to get glue out of my hair

Eyes Forward

Me