When I left you, I waiting on information from Mayo for my next steps. I kept busy while waiting. I had an eye appointment for new glasses. (I know, boring.) But I learned that cancer treatments can affect the eyes. I also ordered new glasses. The frames are awesome, octagonal in shape. I can’t wait to get them. We then had lunch at the mall. Then off to find prices for my hair. We went into Ulta and I found out the cost. I haven’t done it yet, but plan to when I get paid.

Sunday, I spent over two hours on the phone with my dear friend Susan from South Carolina. Yesterday I got scheduled for the PET scan, ENT and oncologist. The 26th and 27th for the appointments. On the 22nd Bruce (the love of my life and typist) has his surgery for prostate cancer.

My daughter Rachael sent me another box of goodies to cheer me up. Several pendants, many native southwest, Dr. Who book and DVD, and lots of Vera Bradley bags. Talking to Rachael always cheers me up.

Waiting is hard. But keeping my eyes forward to health and life is important. And to quote a bumper sticker Rachael sent, “CANCER FEARS ME!”

More soon, Me


This past Friday, I was diagnosed with cancer. It’s in the lymph nodes in my neck. (Bruce refers to them as “nymph lodes” to raise my spirits.) The problem is finding out where it originated. So, more testing. Yippee! A PET scan, most likely.

I’ve been crying a lot. It’s hard not to think of the “What Ifs”. What if I lose my hair? What if I wind up with ugly scars on my neck? What if I lose too much weight? It sucks balls that I don’t have any control while I wait to hear from Mayo for the next steps that I need to take. I hate this!

I’m trying to stay positive and distract myself. But it’s difficult. I take meds for depression. Right now, it’s hard to believe they are working. As I write this, there are 15 minutes left before the close of business. I don’t think I’ll hear today.

I just talked to my daughter. I’ve been wanting to do my hair in Mermaid colors. I didn’t want to upset her with strange color at her wedding. She said “Go for it!”, much to Bruce’s chagrin. So now I need a place to do my hair. Our daughter gifted us with points and our flights are booked for the wedding.

Continuing to look forward. Me.

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